seriously, stress?
Wednesday, September 09, 2009When we first decided that I would stay at home with Jasper, I never would have imagined I could feel stressed out. I imagined the house spotless, time to read and sew... Yeah, not so much. The past couple weeks I have been feeling pretty stressed out. I am way behind on knight light work especially since we just shot a wedding. No chance to catch up either... I have three or four sessions every weekend for the next five weeks. Labels: sahm
I am also trying to get the house in order because we will be having a birthday party for Jasper next month here. (Wait, can I just freak out about that for a second? My baby is turning one next month???)
And to top it all off, we have had some seriously bad luck with Josh's piece of crap car. Josh also ended up at the emergency room last Friday after a piece of machinery crushed his finger. Amazingly his finger did not break but he's been in a lot of pain and not able to use that hand very much.
I don't ever want to wish time away so I am working on enjoying each moment, even stressful ones. I just feel like I'm a little overbooked and overwhelmed and can't do it all. I'm trying to take it one day at a time and one item on my To Do list at a time.
today
Tuesday, August 18, 2009Things I haven't done so far today: Labels: sahm
- worked out
- showered
- laundry
- taken any pictures
- gone to the bank
- made baby food
Things I have done:
- spilled blueberry jam all over the kitchen
- salvaged some jam by scooping it from the counter back into the container
- worked on pictures
- played with a baby
- continued to wear clothes that had been spit up on by a baby
- drank two cups of coffee
- cleaned up dog poop
balance and guilt
Monday, August 17, 2009Being your own boss is a tricky thing. You are the only one who decides when and how much you work. I have been fortunate enough to have a pretty successful photography business. I'm getting calls every week from new clients. The really hard part is knowing how much I can do. Labels: knight light, sahm
One thing I have decided and feel good about is my decision to only shoot a VERY limited number of weddings each year. This year we only are shooting two and it's great. The couples are ones we click with, get our style and want us to do our thing. I'll admit that it's been extremely hard to say no to the many brides that contacted me throughout this year. But once I taught myself the phrase "We are booked for the '09 season", things went pretty smoothly. After I say no, I feel guilty for awhile and then I start to feel relief that I'm not shooting another wedding. So it works out....as long as I can get through the guilt.
I never expected so much guilt to accompany having a business. I feel guilty when I spend too much time working on pictures in the evening because I miss out on time with my husband. I feel guilty when I crash on the couch watching TV instead of doing work. I feel guilty when I have to tell a client that I can't get them in until October because I'm booked up. I feel guilty when I cram three sessions into one weekend.
Slowly though I am learning balance. I have accepted the fact that I cannot shoot four sessions every week like I have been doing. I am occasionally planning a Saturday off here and there. I'm taking it easy this weekend because of the wedding we are shooting the following weekend. And I'm not beating myself up if I choose to sit on the couch for an evening.
It's all about balance and finding that place in the middle. I am learning.
a day in my life
Monday, June 15, 2009I have been asked quite a bit what I do every day. Am I bored? Never. Do I keep busy? Always. My days are always very different. Some days I don't feel like I do anything, others I barely sit down. Some days all I do is work on Knight Light, others all I do is clean... Today was a pretty typical day so I thought I would document with photos. It's kind of cool to look through the pictures and get an overview of the day. Here is a slideshow of the pictures from Flickr (the picture names document what was going on): Labels: baby love, kodachrome, sahm
every little bit
Monday, March 16, 2009When Josh and I were discussing if I should quit my job, one of the things we spent a lot of time on was our budget. In deciding that I would stay at home we knew we'd be following a tight budget. I decided right then that I would start clipping coupons and doing better about planning my grocery list.
Growing up I can remember being in charge of the calculator when we grocery shopped. Everything my mom put in the cart I would type the price into the calculator. This way my mom would know if she was going to go over budget. Since I was well trained as a kid I knew I could do it now.
Last week Josh and I had a little bit extra money so we decided to stock up on a few things. I sent Josh to get a loaf of bread. He came back carrying two loaves of bread and two packages of buns. "They were on sale", he informed. Ataboy! Now I have a pantry that is slowly filling up with everyday items and a freezer full of bread and meat.
It's such a good feeling! Plus following the sales and coupons is kind of fun. On our stocking up trip, I saved $48 because of the sales and all my coupons. Score! posted by kimberly, 3/16/2009 10:27:00 AM
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my boss likes to nap
Monday, March 02, 2009Today is the first official day as a stay-at-home mom. I feel like I took a vacation day and will be going back to work tomorrow. Last night I got the usual Sunday evening blues. The sad feeling when you realize your weekend is over and you have to go back to work. The difference this Sunday was that I didn't have to go back to work. I just can't get myself to remember that! Labels: sahm
I slept in this morning. The little guy and I ran a couple errands including stopping in to my old job to sign a form. I wonder when it will sink in that I really am done with work. It's just so incredible!
