drumroll please
Wednesday, July 02, 2008Labels: about me
My new smile!!
Yesterday I was able to get my braces off. After 2 years, 1 month and 14 days, the metal came out! It is hard to believe that it's been that long because really it feels kind of like yesterday.
Josh took that picture last night. I should have done one from the side because that's a HUGE difference!
I'm so happy to have my braces off. I couldn't help but smile all day! Oh and I love eating out now. I had to giggle yesterday after eating lunch at T.G.I.Friday's with my mom. I barely had to think about if anything was in my teeth. And I have a new appreciation for flossing. It's so much easier without braces. Mostly I'm just thankful that Josh and I were able to do this.
spring break
Monday, March 10, 2008Okay, so it's not spring yet but I think I'm going to take a break this week. I have tons going on including (but not limited too) a dentist appointment, dinner with a friend (see you tonight Sarah), a meeting with a Realtor (WOOHOO!), playing catch-up with Knight Light work and shooting our first wedding of the year on Saturday. Labels: about me
Make sure you come back next Monday for some new and exciting stuff! Have a great week!
goodbye january
Tuesday, January 29, 2008Labels: about me
I'm up and going today. No more fever but I still feel pretty crappy. Eunice reminded me in my last post that January was almost over. So that's what I'm reminding myself... I'm gonna charge through the next three days in hopes of a healthy February!
I may not post for the next couple days. Trying to feel creative when I'm sick doesn't work out so well. But check out my friend Jess's new blog, Lil Moxey. I finally convinced her to start one and just in time to blog about her pregnancy!
if it's not one thing, it's another
Monday, January 28, 2008January has not been a great month for me. Over the weekend I came down with a pretty bad cold. Had a temperature yesterday and again this morning... Looks like another day spent in bed. Labels: about me
i'm back
Monday, January 21, 2008Whew, what a week I had...and an unintentional blogging break. The beginning of last week brought some serious blood sugar issues that made me feel really weak and shaky. I had blood work done on Thursday and everything came back completely normal. Believe it or not, the cause may have been an additional vitamin I started taking a week ago. (I tend to be more on the sensitive side when it comes to medication.) I have stopped taking the vitamin and am really tracking what I eat to make sure I'm eating enough. It's pretty crazy though when you think suddenly you might be hypoglycemic! I was relieved to find out I wasn't. This weekend I have felt a ton better and didn't have the shaky episodes I did during the week. Labels: about me
I was thankful I was feeling better because I was scheduled to shoot a birthday party on Saturday. This little guy turned one last Monday and had a big shin-dig. His mom, Bri, is one of my photography proteges so it was cool to be able to take pictures for her.
It was a good weekend and I feel ready to start my week!
meant to be
Tuesday, December 04, 2007Labels: about me, knight light
I am a really unlucky person. I've never won a contest, a prize, or anything else of that nature. I'm that one person to trip and fall. Things tend to usually not work out for me. I tell you this not for sympathy but to tell you about one situation in my life that always seems to work out. Knight Light.
I had a photo shoot on Sunday morning. The day before everything was covered in ice but we woke up to temperatures around 50 degrees. Although it started getting dark on the way to the shoot, I was able to do all of the pictures I wanted to do. As we were wrapping up, it started to sprinkle. I took the picture above on the way home from the shoot, just minutes after we finished it started to pour. The amazing thing is that this has happened before.
I was so tightly scheduled this fall that I didn't have much room to do reschedules. Luckily I didn't have to reschedule a single shoot. I still can't believe the weather held out for me. As we were driving home from the shoot on Sunday and laughing about the pouring rain, I said to Josh that God really must want me to be a photographer. I joke about it but it's the reassurance I need. I truly believe that I am meant to do this.
my car has issues with me
Friday, November 16, 2007Labels: about me
On Wednesday I did something I never thought I would do. I ran out of gas. TWO.BLOCKS.FROM.HOME. I had been driving on E for awhile but I pride myself on knowing when I need to get gas. Normally I reset the trip odometer when the low gas light comes on. But Josh and I were already using the trip odometer to measure how many miles we drove over the weekend when the light went off so I didn't want to reset it.
I knew I was low, like really low. I had decided when I left work I would go home and then first thing drive up to BP to put gas in my car. That plan didn't so much work out. I was coming up to a stop sign two and a half blocks away from my apartment. My car did this weird puttering sound. And then it died. (Thankfully not in the middle of the road.) I tried to start it again but knew that I had killed it.
I called Josh to come rescue me. The call went something like this:
J: Hi Baby!
K: Josh! I.just.ran.out.of.gas.TWO.blocks.from.home.hurry.and.come.help.me!
Luckily I only had to wave past like three cars but it was still really embarrassing. Of course, now I'm telling the Internet so whatever... I'm pretty sure I pissed off my car though. Yesterday the "Service Engine Soon" light came on. We stopped at AutoZone and apparently my coolant was low.
Josh thinks it's my fault because I don't treat my car that well. I reminded him that I always get the oiled changed regularly and keep the tires filled (usually). Things that have gone wrong aren't my fault. Like I said to Josh last night, "Do I look like a car person?". He asked what that was. I said, "You know, those people that know things...about cars".
in bed
Friday, November 02, 2007Labels: about me
I took off work at noon yesterday. I went home and curled up in bed with Bebo. He's always so snuggly, especially if he thinks we're not feeling well. I'm really wishing I was still in bed with him. I'm trying to will myself to feel better. I'll let you know how that works out...so far, not so much.
birds
Friday, October 26, 2007As I spent some time browsing Etsy and some other sites, I realized that I really have a thing for birds lately. It seems I'm drawn to them more and more. (I bought this necklace from Urban Outfitters not that long ago.) I'm not really sure when this started but I have a lot of bird-related items favorited in Etsy. This works out for me because it seems that birds are really popular right now. Labels: about me
Fauna Spot Bird Necklace by Paraphernalia
Cute Little Bird Woodburned Wall Art Panel by Cabin
Chirp Trucker by Queen Bee Creations
Love Bird Mugs by Rabbit Toes
Rectangle Pillow by joom
Raspberry Bird by cottonbirddesigns
Photo Necklace, Swiftly in White by Adorn Jewelry
Needle Felted Bird by LaurenAlane
sometimes I over-plan
Tuesday, October 23, 2007The other night I got myself all worked up thinking about Knight Light and trying to plan EVERYTHING. I'm usually one of those people that try not to plan their life too much because it never goes that way. I also believe that God has a plan for me so...why should I bother? Sometimes though I forget all of that and start to stress out trying to do it myself. Labels: about me, knight light
During the stress-out the other night, I said to Josh, "I think I'm just going to quit taking pictures. Then I don't have to worry about planning anything". He laughed at me and said, "You could never do that. That would be like me saying 'I think I'm going to quit breathing...it's just taking up too much of my time and it's so much work'."
He's got a point. Guess I'll just see what happens and know that everything will work out!
i'd rather
Thursday, September 27, 2007Labels: about me
It's days like this (high of 78 today) that I don't really want to be here.
I'd rather be doing this, this or this.
i think i might have just started a photo series and not realized it
Friday, August 24, 2007Labels: about me
tapped out
Labels: about me
still life
Friday, August 03, 2007Labels: about me
Yesterday was one of those days where I doubted every ability I have. I went through the whole, "I can't believe I actually charge people to take pictures of them...I should be paying them for my work". I don't know what happens that triggers something like that. Once it hits it just feels so overwhelming.
Josh gave me a pep talk and told me to stop being a "negative nancy". I'm not really sure what I would do without him. He doesn't just say "Kimberly, snap out of it. You're a good photographer". He also says, "Okay. Is their anything we can do to make you feel more confident. What is it exactly about your work that you think isn't very good?".
I'm feeling alright today but frustrated with myself. I don't like it that I get like that. I mean, what do I expect from myself? I picked up an SLR camera only just two years ago. I'm not going to be winning awards right off the bat. Most days I feel like I need to work more on myself than my photography.
give life just try not to pass out
Tuesday, July 24, 2007Labels: about me
I had given blood once before, back when I was in high school. I did fine that time. I can remember babysitting that evening and feeling like it was a little difficult to keep up with the boys but nothing major.
Yesterday I went and gave blood. I was more worried about my vein rolling as they sometimes do. Luckily it didn't and I did totally fine. I didn't even know I was giving blood. That is until the last couple minutes. The girl had just taken the needle out of arm and I was holding my arm above my head like they make you do. Suddenly I was sweating profusely and I realized I couldn't really make out what anyone was saying. My mom, who was in the chair in front of me, happened to look back at me. I kind of heard her say, "You alright?" I remember smiling and kind of shaking my head. Just as the black spots I was seeing were getting larger they lowered my head down and raised my feet up. One of the ladies asked if I was feeling warm. I mumbled, "Erm...yeah, hot". Within probably 15 seconds though I was better.
After a couple minutes of laying back I went and ate a couple cookies and had some juice. I really was feeling alright. My parents (who looked like they could run a marathon) were worried about me driving home. To appease them I said I would walk out with them but really, I was fine. I had gotten about two steps out the door and started to see those darn black dots again. I quickly sat down on the step. Needless to say, my parents drove me home.
So I almost passed out. Twice. But I did found out that I have an excellent level of iron. That my blood type allows me to donate to anybody! And I got free cookies and juice. Plus now I know what it feels like to almost pass out since I've never been that close to fainting in my life.
The almost fainting thing was just a small price to pay for possibly saving someone's life. You can give life too.
on looking young
Monday, July 02, 2007Labels: about me
I have always looked younger than my actual age. When I was in high school, people thought I was in junior high. When I was in college, people thought I was in high school. Now that I'm quite a few years out of college, you would think that people would think I was college age. Nope, still high school. I get it all the time.
Occasionally someone will think I look even younger than 18. Just last week at work the Fed Ex guy wouldn't let me sign his tablet because I wasn't "official" enough. When I questioned it, he commented that I looked to be about thirteen. Uh, THIRTEEN? I mean, c'mon? Thirteen?
It made me realize that high school I can handle... Junior high, on the other hand, is just weird.
at the computer
Wednesday, June 20, 2007Labels: about me, knight light
Sometimes I feel like all I do is sit at the computer. I sit in front of one at work all day and then lately I've been at mine all evening. I guess it's good, it means that I've been busy with Knight Light stuff. Monday night I spent a good four hours working on my brother's wedding invitations. I'm drawing a map of the area where the ceremony and reception is. Let's just say it has taken a little longer than I thought it would. However, it looks pretty darn cute.
As much as I love doing this type of work, sometimes I wish I had a job that didn't require me to be inside on a computer all day. Or maybe I just need a laptop so I can sit outside...
new bike
Monday, June 04, 2007Labels: about me
I've been thinking about asking for a new bike for my birthday (which is not until August). I love riding my mom's old bike to work but it's not great for longer rides. So I decided last week to see if my parent's and Josh wanted to give me a new bike as an early present so I could enjoy it all summer. Saturday after the Farmer's Market we all went to a bike shop to check out the bikes. I tried out his bike and loved it. It pretty much was like going from a station wagon to a sports car. It's so smooth! So we bought it! Isn't it pretty?
Once we got home Josh was like a puppy jumping around just waiting for me to go on a bike ride. We did a seven mile ride out in the country with wind coming at us on the way back in. I thought I would die. No seriously, I cannot remember the last time I worked that hard. My legs were burning and I pretty much didn't think I could pedal anymore. I wanted to cry, sit down by the side of the road and have my dad come pick me up. It was pretty miserable. But . . . I think I'm going to do it again tonight.
Once I had a shower and my legs went from numb back to normal, I felt great. My mini-goal is to do that ride without feeling miserable and like I want to die. The real goal is to do it in 30 minutes instead of the 45 that it took us. Oh goodness, do not let me become obsessed like my husband!
getting your haircut when you're emotionally unstable
Thursday, May 24, 2007Yesterday was a bad day for no particular reason at all. I wasn't feeling well...don't know why. I cried...at nothing. I left work early and slept all afternoon. For the first time in two months I felt like I needed a Xanax. I even got upset and cried when Josh wiped the knife on his pants that he used for his peanut butter sandwich. What is up with that? Labels: about me
Anyway, I had a haircut scheduled for the evening. I have been thinking about chopping my hair for a few months but thought I would wait until after my brother's wedding in September. Jess getting hers cut helped push me towards just doing it now. So I randomly decided two days ago that instead of my usual trim I would just go for it.
I started with my version of liquid courage (Starbucks) although I really wasn't nervous. The funny thing is that I didn't tell anyone what I was doing. Josh didn't even know! Six inches cut off...now I have the funky hairstyle I was hoping for. It's pretty short in the back, texturized, layered, longer in the front...
before
after
The reactions have been pretty fun. My mom gasped, covered her mouth with her hands and then said "It looks SOOOO cute!". Josh's mouth dropped open and eventually said that I looked hot. Can't beat that. Sometimes just going for it (even when emotionally unstable) has its benefits. And you know what? I feel better.
singing bird
Friday, May 18, 2007Labels: about me
"If I keep a green bough in my heart, the singing bird will come." - Chinese Proverb
Every morning at work a bird lands on the top of the tree outside my window. He sings his little heart out and eventually flies away. I find myself stopping for just a minute to listen to his song. I think the maybe he won't be back the next day so I should enjoy his music today.
This morning I peeked out my window when I heard some chirping expecting to see my little bird. Instead it was a bright red cardinal! He perched at the top just like the other does and chirped for quite awhile.
Maybe they're alternating because they know that I need it in the mornings. No matter, it something small that I enjoy every day.
eco-friendly sleep talking
Tuesday, May 01, 2007For as long as I can remember, I have always slept-talk. Not every night and not even that often but I still would sleep talk. When I was younger I usually was looking for my little brother or speaking gibberish. My parents still get a kick about bringing that up when we're all there. In college I would regularly freak my roommate Jess out by looking under the bed for things and asking her where something was. And now that I'm married I provide Josh with something to laugh at in the middle of the night.
More times than not my sleep talking is just incoherent babble. However I am happy to report that my subconscious is becoming environmentally friendly.
Sometime early Monday morning I informed Josh in my sleep, "This is an eco-friendly shower head". posted by kimberly, 7:41 AM 1 comments |
concentration, frustration, hibernation
Monday, April 09, 2007Labels: about me
I'm not so much feeling inspired or motivated this week (actually last week either for that matter). I've been having a really hard time concentrating on anything especially work. That even goes for Knight Light work which is really frustrating. I don't have a lot of time to just stare into space when I should be working on Knight Light. So I'm going into hibernation for a few days to try and find some inspiration. Email me if you've got some for me. :)
things i learned during my day off yesterday
Tuesday, March 27, 2007Labels: about me
- I will never be someone who can work in their pajamas. I didn't feel like I could really focus and get to work until I was showered and dressed.
- Working at a computer all day isn't so bad when you have a huge monitor like ours.
- Bebo needs to go outside a lot during the day but that isn't such a bad thing when the weather is as nice as it has been.
- It's more tempting to take a nap when you're in the same room as your bed all day. (I was able to fight the temptation however!)
- One day just isn't enough to catch up on a week's worth of work.
- Josh isn't as distracting as I thought he would be.
- Mondays just aren't that bad when you're at home.
journey
Friday, February 23, 2007A month ago I wrote honestly about dealing with anxiety problems and all that it meant for me. In some ways it has been such a long month and in other ways, I can't believe that it's already been a month. There have been rough days like yesterday. But there have also been really good days, days where I felt normal. Labels: about me
It seems like the Xanax is doing it's job. I take one in the morning about three days a week. I never need one on a Friday but always on Mondays. I know there are days where I should just take a Xanax (like yesterday) but don't let myself. It's like I'm determined to beat this on my own. When I do take them they make me sleepy but definitely help me get through the day. I try to remember to take them early enough in the morning because otherwise I feel too tired to run over lunch.
That's another thing that I've been able to keep up. I started running over lunch at least three times a week. Some days it's really hard to make myself do it (like yesterday) but I try not to think about it too much. I just run and get it over with. I've been feeling better about myself so I know I want to keep up the running.
Overall I feel like I've come quite a ways from where I was a month ago. I guess it's a journey and I'll keep pluggin' away.
fly away
Thursday, February 22, 2007Some days I want to drive to the airport and get on a plane to go to a random place. Maybe somewhere like here or here. Today is one of those days... Labels: about me
hoping for the weekend
Friday, February 16, 2007
Bebo and I are looking forward to the weekend. We're hoping for some extra time to sleep. Also we'd like coffee, chocolate, sudoku, movies, warmer weather, good shopping deals, eating out, snuggle time and surprises. Hope you all get what you'd like this weekend. posted by kimberly, 8:43 AM 1 comments |
scarf central
Wednesday, February 07, 2007Labels: about me
Yeah, so I have a lot of scarves. I can't help it...I LOVE them! Typically I would be embarrassed to show such a large collection of something but I'm actually proud of these. Most of them I made myself. If I do buy a scarf I wait until it's on clearance. I just can't justify spending money on something I can make. I counted something like 20 scarves plus 3 pashminas. I'm not sure if I'm fickle or really just distracted because I always want a different color scarf. I want them to match my outfits or coats. Even Josh has gotten into it. The hanger on the bottom is full of scarves that I made him, usually by his request!
The hanger thing was a stroke of genius last year when I had about had it with all of my scarves. I couldn't stand not having them organized but didn't know what to do with them in such a small space. All I needed was three hangers and three nails, done!
At least there is a reason for my obsession...currently it is 1 below but weather.com says it feels like 12 below. Nice.
onward
Sunday, January 28, 2007I had a full and happy weekend which was a good cap to my previous week. Last week was my first in trying out the Xanax. After some trial and error, I believe I got the right dosage. I started off with not enough, then went to too much (where I actually dozed off twice at work!) and now it seems to be just right. Labels: about me
It's weird to take something that relaxes you. Even after knowing that it works I still question whether it will kick in and really help. Friday was a crazy day at work and I actually felt okay all day. I didn't get worked up over anything and managed to not cry once. Woohoo! I do find that it takes me longer to process things and sometimes I really have to think hard. It's okay though, I think I'll get used to it.
So onto another week!
organizing = free therapy
Thursday, January 25, 2007Labels: about me
One thing that has always helped me feel better is organizing something. For as long as I can remember I have loved to get things in order. Last night at 8:30 I decided our closet needed organizing. I went through I sorted out the clothes I don't wear and Josh did the same. I won't even show you the pile of clothes we have to get rid of. I'm thinking about trying to convince my mom to have a garage sale in the spring.
It is such a good feeling to get things in order. I love to purge. Throw things away that I don't need anymore. I have the distinct determination to not become a clutter bug. Maybe tonight I'll tackle the spare room. Basically it's free therapy for me...
hello friends
Wednesday, January 24, 2007Thank you to everyone who commented and dropped me emails for the past two days. I really can't tell you how much it has meant to me. My post on Monday was a scary one for me but I needed/need support of my friends. I am definitely getting it. I really don't know what else to say except thanks to all of you... Labels: about me
the truth of the matter
Monday, January 22, 2007Labels: about me, deep thoughts
Some of you may have noticed that I've been a little half-hearted on my blog. It has bothered me to just do filler posts but I haven't wanted to talk about the truth.
The truth is that a lot has been going on in my life. Josh is searching for a job which is frustrating for both of us. We are getting so anxious to get out of our crappy apartment. Everyday I see something that makes me think how much I hate it. I've also been overwhelmed with work stuff. And right after Christmas we found out that Josh's younger sister is getting married in March and having a baby in July. It came as quite a shock to the entire family although things have settled down quite a bit. As ridiculous as it sounds, it has been hard to handle that yet another person is pregnant. I now personally know ELEVEN pregnant women. It sucks to feel like you're ready but the time isn't right.
Somewhere in the midst of all of this, I stopped being able to handle things.
I went from feeling a little down to crying every day and having the occasional emotional breakdown (what I think of as sob fests). At first I thought that maybe my thyroid wasn't working properly again but I don't have all of my old symptoms. I do however, have all of these symptoms...general anxiety disorder.
I tried everything I could from counting my blessings (which are immeasurable) to focusing on the good. I tried eating junk food, exercising, watching goofy movies... No matter how hard I tried nothing seemed to help. I go through periods during the day where I feel fine like my happy old self. Suddenly out of nowhere I start feeling overwhelmed by something...unable to handle what is going on.
I went to the doctor last Friday and saw the nurse practitioner. She was so understanding. She was patient as I tried to talk about what I was feeling and of course, I cried. The hardest part is describing it. I've never been the type of person that couldn't handle stress. Sure, I'd go through down times but eventually I could let it go. Lately I can't let it go. I will suddenly feel a terrible hopelessness even though deep inside I know things will eventually work out. It's almost like a battle inside me. I finally felt some relief when I talked to the nurse practitioner. She wanted to help me. I now have a prescription to Xanax to take when I need it. I'm hoping that it will do the trick and help me get through this rough patch.
Josh has been such a trooper. He's a fix-it type of guy so it's been so hard for him to not be able to "fix me". I'm not really sure what I would do without him and my family. They've been so supportive. I know it's hard for them (especially my mom) to see me so upset about things. I've put them through so much and they were just right there with me. While I was writing this entry I stopped to ask Josh if he thought it was okay to post. He said that he thought it would be really good for me. I said, "You don't care if people think your wife is crazy?" He responded with a smirk, "Well...if the shoe fits." Gosh, I love that man. He really does get me through most days.
I'm not really sure why it's hard for people to talk about anxiety and depression. It is estimated that one in four adults suffer from a diagnosable mental disorder. I thought long and hard about writing about this. I mean, I don't really know who will read it. But my good friend Pam has given me courage to talk about this because she has been so honest about dealing with depression. By talking about things like this, we can learn to help each other. Maybe someone will read this and have the courage to talk to their doctor (which believe me, is not easy).
So there is it... Wow, I did really just lay it out there. But I consider you my friends and right now I need some support from my friends. So thanks in advance for listening...
day at the spa
Monday, January 15, 2007Jess's husband, Tommy, called me a month and a half ago wanting some help with a Christmas present for Jess. He wanted to get her a gift certificate to "one of those places that does your nails and stuff". I did some research and found a spa in Springfield that does just that. Tommy wanted me to surprise Jess and meet her there. In his words, "you should be there since you're pretty much her favorite person". So we worked with Jess's mom and planned the whole thing. Labels: about me, the one with friends
I got there early on Saturday and hid in the nail room. I was so excited peeking out the window waiting for Jess. Jess was so surprised when I walked around the corner. All of the ladies that worked there were so excited too. We both got manicures, pedicures and facials.
I've never had a facial before so I wasn't sure what to expect. Towards the end of the facial, I got a mask and then hot towels laid over my face. I was left in the little room to relax for awhile with the towels. I realized that I have a hard time just relaxing...just sitting.
Here is a little bit of what went on in my mind for those 10 minutes.
So these towels are pretty warm.
I hope my hair isn't getting wet.
I can't believe we actually surprised Jess.
I wonder what kind of stuff is on my face right now.
I wonder what it looks like.
Maybe I could peek in the mirror.
Probably not without messing up the towels.
Then the lady would know that I moved them.
I should try to stop thinking.
I hope my mascara isn't smeared all over my face.
I liked when she used the paint brushes to apply the goop.
Wonder how Jess's manicure is going.
Man, those other ladies are really loud.
I haven't listened to this Norah Jones cd in forever.
Jess said that Enya was next. I'm not really fan...I'm sure it'll be relaxing.
Relaxing...I think that's what I'm supposed to be doing.
I really hope my hair isn't going to look all nasty after this.
I need to stop worrying about my stupid hair.
My stomach is growling really loud.
I wish my teeth didn't hurt.
I wonder if my mom would be too claustrophobic to do this.
It's not too bad because I can move the towels.
Geez, I've got to stop messing with these towels.
The lady said I had nice eyelashes. Huh.
Stop thinking. Relax.
I wonder if I should wear my flip flops for the rest of the afternoon.
I don't want to ruin my pedicure.
The manicurist was really nice. I wish I had an art studio like she has.
I wonder how long I've been in here.
After this is done I'll check my face for running mascara.
I'm glad the weather wasn't so bad I couldn't come.
Hmm...I'm really hungry.
I wonder what Josh is doing. I hope he's feeling better.
I hope I don't get his cold.
Stop thinking. Enjoy the warm towels and relaxing music.
The towels aren't really that warm anymore though.
Maybe I can feel underneath the headwrap thing to see if my hair is getting gross.
Nope, can't do it without messing up the towels.
Oh well, who do I have to impress?
I cannot find a comfortable spot for my feet.
Okay, I'm totally going to stop thinking and relax now.
Jess and I had a really good time. I'm sure we looked silly walking around Springfield's mall in flip flops but at least our feet looked really cute. I told Jess that we should make it a yearly thing although I don't know that I'll get a facial next time. I'm just too...um, easily distracted.
alone
Monday, January 08, 2007Labels: about me, deep thoughts
Yesterday I went shopping by myself. Josh had to work all day so instead of sitting around doing nothing like I did the day before, I thought I would make use of my Sunday. I always think that I'll like shopping by myself but I never do. I don't know how many times I wanted to turn to my left and ask Josh what he thought of something.
I always wanted to be one of those people who could go out to eat by themselves or go see a movie alone. I admired them because they didn't need somebody else to go with them. I can remember trying to convince myself to go see a movie alone. I just never got up the courage to do it.
I ate supper by myself last night since Josh was still at work. I sat at the kitchen table and realized that I hate eating by myself too. I worried for a minute that I couldn't be alone. Then I came to the realization that I just like talking that much.
Not really a resolution...
Thursday, January 04, 2007Labels: about me, kodachrome
...more of a determination to take more pictures. The more pictures I take the more comfortable I get with my camera. I've been addicted to flickr lately. I also figured out that I can email pictures from my camera phone to flickr. It's about time I got with the program.
I didn't want to say anything because I don't want to jinx it, but I decided to take a picture a day. I tried this once before but my puppy munched on my little camera. Now that I have the D50 I really think I can do this. We'll see how it goes!
whew...
Wednesday, December 27, 2006Our Christmas weekend has come to an end. It was a full and happy time. Here's my recap in pictures: Labels: about me, christmas cheer, family matters
My brother, Tony and his fiance, Emily came home. Josh and I were honored to be asked to be in their wedding. Yeah, that's right...I'm a freakin' bridesmaid.
We decorated my parent's tree with all of our childhood ornaments.
My parents cooked up quite the feast on Christmas Eve. Gideon, the adopted stray, was allowed inside for awhile. Toby even shared his bed.
We played Battle of the Sexes and Apples to Apples where we all got a little into it.
My mom had her first actual cup of coffee on Christmas morning. She was so darn excited.
My dad and brother both got new kicks for Christmas and decided to show them off with a high kick.
And of course, we got to spend some time with our favorite niece, Kate.
It was such a great weekend. Josh and I both got so many nice gifts...more than we deserved. It was a wonderful time spent with our families. Sad it's over...
Christmas
Saturday, December 23, 2006Labels: about me, christmas cheer
From my family to yours...wishing everyone a very Merry Christmas!
christmas stuff and my folks
Friday, December 22, 2006Labels: about me, christmas cheer, family matters
Our little Christmas tree is packed full of Christmas presents all wrapped and ready to go. Every year I plan how I'm going to wrap all of presents. This year I had a plan but chucked it all when I realized I had all of this blue snowflake paper. I think I probably bought it last year after Christmas, planning for next year!
I had to share this ornament. It is my absolute favorite ornament. I made it when I was in nursery school and it has survived since then. Growing up that was my favorite ornament to put on the tree. While we were decorating the tree I would pick a bottom branch in the front for this little guy. Once we got Toby that didn't work so much since it's made from a dog biscuit, so it was moved to a very high branch. It hasn't been gobbled up by a puppy and managed to make it on my tree every year.
A few pictures from last night:
The trick is to just snap pictures like I'm the paparazi. Soon they'll be laughing so much that I'm bound to get a good one. I took this one of my parents last night. Love it.
My mom always shys away from the camera. I was telling her that if she just relaxed and had fun with it I was likely to get a good picture. Suddenly she started posing like a model and laughing. I kept snapping and got this beauty. I think she looks gorgeous.
the holiday
Monday, December 18, 2006Labels: about me, christmas cheer
[Outtake from our Christmas family picture]
Josh and I went to see The Holiday on Saturday night with some friends. I thought it was a really cute movie. Unfortunately it was probably the most uncomfortable movie experience ever. We went to a movie theater we don't go to anymore. I sat in a very uncomfortable chair behind a very tall guy. The lady next to me alternated between coughing and "aw"-ing. You know at everything she would say (loudly), "AW!" or she'd describe what was going on like, "Oh, she's crying". I sat leaning to the right the entire time so I could see and trying to ignore the lady a seat over. I think that I'd like to see the movie again so I could really enjoy it.
so i ruined another christmas present
Thursday, December 14, 2006Labels: about me, christmas cheer
Josh told me after the Russell + Hazel tote came that he had another gift coming. He said that it was going to be delivered to my parents on Tuesday and I wasn't to even set foot in their house that day. I talked to my mom Tuesday evening and she said that something had arrived for me so I wasn't to be looking in my brother's room. Of course I obeyed because I love surprises and Christmas.
Yesterday I got the mail after work as always. Josh was looking over my shoulder pulling out his mail. I got to an envelope that was addressed to him. Unfortunately the return address was Lands' End. I don't think that Josh or I have every bought anything from them. But that is the place that has the aqua snowboots I've wanted for a year. I knew the minute I saw it that Josh had ordered them for me. I had just ruined another one of Josh's presents.
Usually Josh will accidentally give away what he got for me because he'll hint too much. I know him so well that I can almost always guess what he got me. This year he was doing so well and hadn't really talked about anything. But of course, Lands' End would have to mail him a receipt for his purchase. I mean, c'mon, who does that? Just put it in the box with the item!
I cried when Josh brought them down from my brother's room at my parent's. I cried when I tried them on. I told Josh that I just wanted to return them. I don't want them anymore. I'm actually trying to convince myself that they're too big. Of course, Josh is determined that we will not return them.
Less than two weeks until Christmas, we'll see how many more presents I can manage to screw up.
snippet
Friday, December 08, 2006While bundling up to take out Bebo I put on a tassled hat. Labels: about me, family matters
J: That hat makes you like you're from Whoville.
K: Oh, well that's because I am from Whoville.
J: Hmm...how is it that I never knew that?
K: I wanted to wait until at least a year into our marriage to tell you.
J: So is that why your mom looks like an elf?
K: Yep.
J: But is your dad a Who too?
K: No. I'm half-Who.
journaling
Tuesday, November 21, 2006Labels: about me, deep thoughts
That right there is three years worth of journaling. I started when I was a Sophomore in college and journaled practically everyday through my Senior year. Whoa. I still can't believe that I was able to stick with it. I can remember starting diaries as a kid but I could never keep it up.
I pulled these journals out the other night while I was cleaning out our closet. I really thought that I was going to "dispose" of them. I started flipping through one of them. I opened to when I had written about walking in my college graduation ceremony. It made me laugh to read through some of the entries on my final days of school and our last hurrahs. I got a little choked up when I read my entry about moving out of the house I shared with my two friends, Jess and Sheri.
When I was in college I made Jess swear to me that if anything should happen to me, she would destroy my journals. I was kind of set on getting rid of them the other night. But after flipping through some of the books I decided that I just can't do it yet. Sure there are embarrassing parts but there is also a couple entries about Josh (right before I stopped writing). After a few months of dating I had written: "I think I'm going to marry Josh. Oh my gosh, I can't believe I just wrote that out". Ha. I can remember thinking that.
Sometimes it's nice to see where you've come from to really appreciate where you're at now.
five of many
Friday, November 17, 2006I was tagged by Maladjusted to do a little meme listing five odd things about myself. Well, I'll tell you that there are plenty more than five but here ya go... Labels: about me
1. The toilet paper roll has a correct and incorrect way of going on. It must be put on properly.
2. Everything has to line up, for example my bulletin board at work. All of the pictures line up perfectly. Everything has to be straight. If it's not, I'll fix it.
3. Have you seen the movie Signs? You know the little girl that won't finish a glass of water? That's me. There are half full glasses of water all over the apartment. I carry them with me but just can never quite finish them.
4. I've talked about it before but I'm afraid of squirrels. I just can't help it.
5. If my husband wouldn't make fun of me, I'd probably listen to Christmas music all year round.
long week
Thursday, November 16, 2006Labels: about me
Wishing for blue skies...
what my day consisted of
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
I woke up yesterday morning around 2am with a bladder infection. They suck. I was up for a couple hours because it was impossible to fall asleep. I then proceeded to spend the entire day in bed. I left the apartment once to get my prescription. It's really weird to sleep that much. I kept laying back down because I was tired but I didn't think there was anyway I could sleep more. Turns out you can sleep all day. Bebo stayed by my side the entire time. I think he knew I wasn't feeling well. He curled up next to me on the bed and slept his day away too.
Luckily those antibiotics work quickly and I'm feeling a little better today. I have to admit that I wish I were still in bed though. posted by kimberly, 7:38 AM 2 comments |
forming my opinion
Wednesday, November 08, 2006Labels: about me, coffee talk, deep thoughts
Although I'm not what I would call a timid person, I have always been very careful about not offending someone else. I often worried that what I would say would be taken the wrong way. Because of this, I usually did not voice my opinion. (At least when it came to bigger issues, especially political...) I also have never been sure enough of myself to really stand up for certain things.
The past few years though I have slowly been finding my voice and figuring out my opinion. It all started because my strong opinion about an issue was completely reversed. This started a snowball effect. I started researching that particular issue more and developing my own opinion about it, not just what I had always believed. I began doing this about other political and non-political issues.
I now have actual opinions about certain issues. If someone asked me, I can tell them. Of course I don't have everything figured out so I'm still remaining open-minded and soaking in as much information as I can. It's exciting though to see how I've grown.
windows
Tuesday, November 07, 2006At the risk of sounding creepy, I'm going to tell you that I love looking in people's windows at night. Okay, that doesn't sound right. What I mean is that I love when people leave their curtains open in the evening and you get a quick glimpse of their life as you drive past. There is something so warm and inviting about open curtains. Labels: about me, deep thoughts
I can remember being at a co-worker's house a couple of years ago. Her and her husband had built this amazing house with basically a wall of windows. I asked her if they were going to get shades for them or something to cover them. She thought for a minute and said that she didn't think she would. She said, "I don't mind knowing that people can see in as they drive down the road. It's comforting and homey."
Maybe you think this is all very weird but I love driving down the street and catching a peek into someone's life. It makes me feel more connected.
just call me funky cherry
Wednesday, October 25, 2006Labels: about me
Saturday morning I did one of those wash-in colors like I did back in February. This time the color choice was Funky Cherry. The color already has faded quite a bit since Saturday but I'm really likin' it. Although I am glad it's just temporary.
so why aren't you doing it?
Tuesday, October 17, 2006Labels: about me, knight light
Yesterday morning at work I got a call from a friend of mine. He was shoveling grain and had cow poop all over his shoes. He said that he was tired of this and just wanted to do something else. He says, "You're good at photography. You want to open a studio. So...why aren't you doing it?"
I had to laugh. It sounded so easy when he said it. Like I could just buy a building somewhere and turn it into my studio. I have been getting more business for Knight Light. The word is getting out. I have a list of things to do like design postcards advertising my design services and develop a portfolio for photography. I had the opportunity a couple weeks ago to have a table at a ladies workout center for a vendor fair. I had to turn it down though because I don't even have a portfolio. I wish I had some vacation time from my real job to take off and work on my fake job. Hmm...what does that mean?
Anyway, I think things are progressing well. I'm trying to be patient and not scared to death. I'm looking forward to seeing where this all goes. So is Josh...he's certain that I'll "make it big".
every head needs a garage
Friday, October 13, 2006Labels: about me
In college I wore hooded sweatshirts a lot. It was really all about comfort in college. I can distinctly remember one evening during my senior year. I was feeling kind of down and had pulled the hood up on my hooded Eastern sweatshirt. Jess sat down next to me and asked what was wrong. I was surprised that she could tell I was bummed and asked how she knew. She said that my hood was up and that was a sure sign. I didn't realize it but everytime I was sad or a little down I would pull the hood over my head.
After she pointed that out I started to notice how often I did it. I think it was my way of subconsciously blocking out the world. It was a way to retreat.
I don't think I do that anymore. Now when I put my hood up it's because I'm cold or I'm just being a dork. I think I learned to deal with stress instead of just blocking it out. I'm still not the best at it but I'm learning. And bonus: I don't have to wear a hooded sweatshirt every day just in case I start feeling stressed out.
weekend part 2
Wednesday, October 11, 2006Labels: about me, family matters
On Sunday Josh and I went to his family's church for Kate's baby dedication. It's been quite awhile since we've been to a more traditional church service. I have missed singing from a hymnal instead of all praise songs. Kate slept through the whole service even when Pastor Jim "stole" her from Eric and Missy. After church the whole crew went out for lunch to celebrate Kate's dedication.
During lunch Josh ran out to the car for Missy to get Kate's bottle. I asked him if he would run the bottle under some hot water and he trotted off. Missy gave me a funny look and said, "Um, is he practicing for something?" I laughed and said, "No, not yet". She surprised me by saying, "Oh...shucks". I usually feel like his family thinks that we're so young and have a long way to go before having kids.
It was an eventful day though. I got to hold my niece, pick on my sister-in-law Jill, eat lunch at a crappy restaurant, buy "The Little Mermaid". I even told Jenna that it hurt my feelings when she was so mean to me. She laughed but then I think realized I was being serious. Hopefully it will make a difference.
the waiting
Tuesday, October 10, 2006Labels: about me, deep thoughts, family matters
Hospitals are a weird place to be or rather, waiting rooms are a weird place to be. I spent my morning in a hospital yesterday and most of it in a waiting room. Sitting in the waiting room I looked around at the other people. They were all there while a loved one was back in surgery. I didn't know them, they didn't know me but it we had something in common. People we had probably never met were performing surgery on our family members or friends. It's a scary thing to be there and to really not know what was going on. Just having faith...trusting that everything was going fine.
My mom's procedure took longer than expected. The last half an hour was pure torture. You can only look at the clock so many times. My dad paced or looked over the balcony. When we were told to go in a small conference room to see her doctor after the surgery I almost lost it. Panic set in and I tapped my foot faster. Apparently that is just protocol and the doctor informed us she did great. Relief set in and I was even able to walk through the hospital's gift shop.
Last night she was already home on the couch looking remarkably perky. Her little voice is still scratchy from the intubation tube and she's weak but she wasn't short on smiles or a laugh.
I think the worse part yesterday was letting the nurses wheel her back. She was half asleep by then but I just wanted to cry and stay with her. Why couldn't I just be right outside the door to make sure everything was going okay? When I finally got to see her again in the recovery room she looked smaller than normal all curled up on the cot. When she told me in a tiny hoarse voice that she just wanted to go home, I wanted to scoop her up and carry her home. The funny thing is that I felt like I could scoop her up and carry her out of that hospital.
Hospitals are a weird place. I'm thankful that everything went well and thankful that there are people like those doctors and nurses who can take care of special people like my little momma.
crap, it's already morning
Wednesday, October 04, 2006Morning people are cool. I wish I was a morning person. They don't hit the snooze 5 times every morning or try to justify sleeping those extra 4 minutes. No, morning people get up and attack their day. My mom is a morning person. I can remember waking up for school and she would already have a load of laundry done, the kitchen floor scrubbed, cookies started and still have had time for three bowls of cereal. (Yes, I said three.) I wish I was like that (the getting-so-much-accomplished thing and the able-to-eat-three-bowls-of-cereal-every-morning thing). Labels: about me
This morning I got out of bed when my alarm went off. This is something that I actually can't remember the last time I've done. Normally I am running late so I just have to grab something for breakfast on my way out the door. This morning I had plenty of time so I made coffee and omelets for breakfast. When I woke up Josh to tell him I made him an omelet, he practically jumped out of bed.
I could really get used to that...extra time in the morning. Now if only I could train myself to be a morning person.
limbo and patience
Tuesday, October 03, 2006Josh is going to be finished with school in about 2 1/2 months. It's crazy how it just snuck up on us. I really can't wait though. I can't wait for him to have a regular full time job and to know what his hours are going to be. I hate working around the ever-changing work schedule. Labels: about me
Even though I know 2 months will go quickly, I can't help feeling impatient. It's weird to be in limbo. It's like Josh and I are just waiting for things to happen and move forward. The problem is that I absolutely hate waiting...I want to make things happen NOW.
Gosh, I have a real problem with patience. But really, is anyone truly patient? When people know that things are going to changing, don't they feel anxious? I wonder if you can learn to be patient. If so, I'd like to take some lessons.
going country
Monday, September 25, 2006Labels: about me, music, the one with friends
That's my friend, Nicole, and I...at a country bar. Saturday night I went along with Nicole to hear the band Trent Willmon. Anyone who knows me even a little bit knows that I'm not a fan of country music (to put it lightly). I did go through a phase for about 6 months in high school but I eventually snapped out it.
Walking into the bar, I felt immediately out of place. Dangit, I had forgotten to wear my cowboy hat and confederate flag t-shirt. Nicole and I found a place to stand by a counter. Within 20 minutes of being there a very drunk man came by and gave us a hug. An opening band that I assume was local played a lot of cover songs (although they were all new to me). We met a bachelor party that was making a pit stop until they hit the strip club. One of the guys from that group was busy smacking girls' butts as they walked by him. Of course that particular drunk guy wanted to ask me to dance when I slow song came on. I was never so happy to tell him I was married.
Here is a video clip that I shot with my camera to prove I was there. Unfortunately when I turned the camera around it's too dark to see me. Oh well.
All in all it wasn't too bad. I do think I heard enough country music to last me at least five years. But I got to hear some really crappy pickup lines and hang out with my good friend...it could have been worse.
the bears
Thursday, September 21, 2006
I think the Bears are going to the Superbowl this year. We'll have to bring back the Superbowl Shuffle. I think I should probably get a vintage Bears shirt like this one.
Laugh if you want...I know absolutely nothing about football. My prediction is completely based on sentimental reasons (my dad in his favorite Bears shirt or my 1 year old brother dancing in his walker to the Superbowl Shuffle) and nothing concrete or technical.