that baby fever thing

Monday, August 07, 2006

Kate, August 6, 2006 (More pictures from the baby photo shoot on flickr.)

Everyone that knows me knows I'm ready to have kids. I have since I was probably 20. I mean, look...I'm a natural. I talked about it last fall but I typically tend to avoid the subject on here. I guess when you talk about it, it makes it worse.

Last week when Josh and I went to visit Kate in the hospital, our baby fever was at an all time high. We spent the next four days talking about Baby Kate and when we were going to see her again. We talked about our own kids and what we'll name them. We even started looking at baby stuff online. (Did you know there are about a billion parenting tips blogs? You can bet those are bookmarked for the future.)

Friday night Josh and I took supper over to Missy and Eric. We fought over who got to hold Kate first, took some pictures of her, oohed and ahhed... I expected to leave sad because we don't have a baby yet. Instead I left feeling slightly relieved. For the first time, I felt like maybe it really isn't our time yet. You could tell that Missy and Eric were simply elated but holy cow, exhausted and overwhelmed. Your life totally changes and for once I think I really grasped that.

Don't get me wrong, I'm still completely excited and anxious for Josh and I to start our own family. But I feel a little more patient (shocker, I know). I really just want things to be in order before we start trying. I want a house and to just feel completely ready.

I am so excited that I get to be aunt and get my baby fix whenever I want. I can't wait until Missy and Eric are ready to go out for the evening and we can babysit. I can't wait until Kate starts sitting up and doing fun baby things. I can't wait to watch her grow up and learn. For now, that's enough for me. While our baby fever last week was at Severe, I would say it's now only at an Elevated level. And I can live with that...

Labels: deep thoughts, knight light

posted by kimberly, 7:53 AM