The Fever

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

It's official. Josh and I have the disease. The Baby Fever. Not just Baby Fever, but also Toddler Fever, Kid Fever... I've got it all. I guess I've always wanted to be a mom. When I was little and people would ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I'd say I wanted to be a mommy. Maybe since I have had such a great mom, it makes me want to experience that even more. I have so many great memories growing up...making forts out of blankets in the backyard, helping my mom bake, going to the zoo... I can't wait to experience all of those things again but from the other side.

My mom always talked about how much she loved being pregnant and what an amazing experience it was. I think she would have had 15 kids if they could have afforded it. Hearing that all my life has made me look forward so much to being pregnant. Maybe that's strange to some people...

I'm cautious to tell people because I always get the same response, "Oh, you have plenty of time for kids. Enjoy being married." Okay, who says I'm not enjoying being married!? Just because I want kids, doesn't mean that I'm taking this time for granted. I guess people don't understand. Yeah, kids are a HUGE responsibility... But everyone is different. For some people it's more important than others. So what? I'm ready to have kids. Would it really be so terrible to have kids right away? I don't think so.

Unfortunately, Josh and I have to wait until he's done with school before we can even really think about it. A year from December and he'll be done... I can't wait. For now I will continue to look longingly over the baby clothes in the mall and smile when I see a little kid with their parents. Josh and I will keep preparing our hearts and lives for the day that we can add another to our family.

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